Wednesday, 30 April 2008

Memories, stem cells and sphinxes


Strange, compelling creatures they are, recurring, fascinating down the ages. Lingering intrigued beside the sphinxes in the garden of Vienna's Belvedere Palace, I noticed I was not the only one. Many people stared boldly at their all-too-human smirking faces and pert breasts, then looked away discomfited from their animal haunches.

I found myself thinking of the item dominating the news when I'd left London a few days before, the new legislation to permit the fusion, for research, of human and animal embryos. Despite myself, I felt a flash of sympathy for the Catholic and Muslim clerics loudly protesting this. Despite myself, for surely I welcome the real hope in embryo and stem-cell research of understanding, tackling some common and devastating diseases? I feel divided, I suppose. How much is it good to mess with things? And yet if there was really hope for dear ones to live or see or walk when we thought they would not, would I say no?

There truly is hope, it seems. A boy is interviewed on the radio this week. An injection of genetic material into the back of his eyes appears to have halted loss of sight from retinitis pigmentosa. My heart lurches, as it always does when I hear of a young person losing their sight to this not uncommon genetic condition. Someone close to me when I was young was going through this, with devastating consequences to his life and lives around him. Will that contemporary of mine live to know his story has become a sad story from history - like that of common early death from TB? How strange, how miraculous, but also, for him and for others, how difficult that would be.

Monday, 28 April 2008

Blue glass

behind blue windows
hidden worlds where blue people

go about their lives


Saturday, 26 April 2008

Sunshine, yellow




It's warm, straight from shivery cold to very warm. Coats are off and a man on the bus is wearing a yellow sweatshirt. Extremely yellow. Yellow like the bus handrail, like a yellow highlighter pen layered on so thickly that the text beneath disappears. Fine on a canary, not on a person. All the way here it bothers me. Off the bus and walking away, ahead of me, through the crowds, bursts of glaring yellow are still visible into the distance. Tired, busy, crowded, yellow. Much too yellow.

Thursday, 24 April 2008

Saturday, 19 April 2008

Babel: living in our differences


"The ancient biblical image suggests that we live in our differences, emblematically linguistic, on top of one another - like Franck Lloyd Wright's dream of a mile-high apartment building. But common sense tells us our linguistic dispersion cannot be a tower. The geography of our dispersal into many languages is much more horizontal then vertical (or so it seems), with rivers and mountains and valleys, and oceans that lap around the land mass. To translate is to ferry, to bring across.

But maybe there is some truth in the image. A tower has many levels, and the many tenants of this tower are stacked one on top of another. If Babel is anything like other towers, the higher floors are the more coveted. Maybe certain languages occupy whole sections of the upper floors, the great rooms and commanding terraces. And other languages and their literary products are confined to lower floors, low ceilings, blocked views."


Susan Sontag brings new and striking resonances to the ancient image - particularly vivid for me as I'd recently seen Bruegel's astonishing painting in Vienna - in her essay, The World as India, delivered as the 2002 UK St Jerome Lecture on Literary Translation and published in the recent collection of her last speeches and essays, At The Same Time.
The book is a breathtaking, poignant tour of an intellect at its peak.
(this close to the painting)

Friday, 18 April 2008

Feedback?

New design. I loved the elegant simplicity of the previous one, but it fatally lacked a sidebar - so no links, no blogroll. This here happened on the spur of the moment when I desperately needed to be engaged in doing other things, but you know how the brain gets hold of a frantic obsession sometimes and kind of goes off on its own... It suddenly seemed imperative to redesign my blog. I'll probably change it again, and obviously I haven't yet compiled the sidebar links. I need to get into the code and make the photos bigger - almost certainly beyond me. Anyway, comments welcome.

Chill



The other thing going slowly in these parts is Spring. After soft, warm days in Vienna, back to persistent cold and damp in London. Just the one snowstorm, a week or so ago - a white cover gone in one day, but chill winds, frost and hail, along with heavy rainstorms.
Jacques Réda, whose writing I'm just discovering with great enjoyment, calls these unfriendly between-seasons the 'badly tamed' months, when something gets into steel and concrete towers and stone statues and they bend and prowl under a wild sky like trees and beasts in the forest. There are more flowers and leaves every day, nonetheless, and louder birdsong, all of us shivering and waiting out the weather, turning our faces up to the brief bursts of sunshine.

Thursday, 17 April 2008

Green wind, green branches


I learn from Dave that today is Poem in your Pocket Day. So here, quickly, is the one that lurks in the bottom of mine: the first poem, I think, that made an impression on me, aged 16 or 17. I could not recite it now, but every line of the Spanish has a familiar taste - something resonated in my gut, many years before I had the emotional or intellectual capacity to appreciate poetry.

Romance Sonambulo by Federico Garcia Lorca
Translated by William Logan (original Spanish below)

Green, how I want you green.

Green wind. Green branches.


The ship out on the sea

and the horse on the mountain.

With the shade around her waist

she dreams on her balcony,

green flesh, her hair green,

with eyes of cold silver.

Green, how I want you green.

Under the gypsy moon,

all things are watching her

and she cannot see them.


Green, how I want you green.

Big hoarfrost stars

come with the fish of shadow

that opens the road of dawn.

The fig tree rubs its wind

with the sandpaper of its branches,

and the forest, cunning cat,

bristles its brittle fibers.

But who will come? And from where?

She is still on her balcony

green flesh, her hair green,

dreaming in the bitter sea.


--My friend, I want to trade

my horse for her house,

my saddle for her mirror,

my knife for her blanket.

My friend, I come bleeding

from the gates of Cabra.

--If it were possible, my boy,

I'd help you fix that trade.

But now I am not I,

nor is my house now my house.

--My friend, I want to die

decently in my bed.

Of iron, if that's possible,

with blankets of fine chambray.

Don't you see the wound I have

from my chest up to my throat?

--Your white shirt has grown

thirsy dark brown roses.

Your blood oozes and flees a

round the corners of your sash.

But now I am not I,

nor is my house now my house.

--Let me climb up, at least,

up to the high balconies;

Let me climb up! Let me,

up to the green balconies.

Railings of the moon

through which the water rumbles.


Now the two friends climb up,

up to the high balconies.

Leaving a trail of blood.

Leaving a trail of teardrops.

Tin bell vines

were trembling on the roofs.

A thousand crystal tambourines

struck at the dawn light.


Green, how I want you green,

green wind, green branches.

The two friends climbed up.

The stiff wind left

in their mouths, a strange taste

of bile, of mint, and of basil

My friend, where is she--tell me--

where is your bitter girl?

How many times she waited for you!

How many times would she wait for you,

cool face, black hair,

on this green balcony!

Over the mouth of the cistern

the gypsy girl was swinging,

green flesh, her hair green,

with eyes of cold silver.

An icicle of moon

holds her up above the water.

The night became intimate

like a little plaza.

Drunken "Guardias Civiles"

were pounding on the door.

Green, how I want you green.

Green wind. Green branches.

The ship out on the sea.

And the horse on the mountain.


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Verde que te quiero verde.

Verde viento. Verdes ramas.

El barco sobre la mar

y el caballo en la montaña.

Con la sombra en la cintura

ella sueña en sus baranda,

verde carne, pelo verde,

con ojos de fría plata.

Verde que te quiero verde.

Bajo la luna gitana,

las cosas la están mirando

y ella no puede mirarlas.


Verde que te quiero verde.

Grandes estrellas de escarcha,

vienen con el pez de sombra

que abre el camino del alba.

La higuera frota su viento

con la lija de sus ramas,

y el monte, gato garduño,

eriza sus pitas agrias.

¿Pero quién vendrá? ¿Y por dónde...?

Ella sigue en su baranda,

verde carne, pelo verde,

soñando en la mar amarga.


Compadre, quiero cambiar

mi caballo por su casa,

mi montura por su espejo,

mi cuchillo por su manta.

Compadre, vengo sangrando,

desde los puertos de Cabra.

Si yo pudiera, mocito,

este trato se cerraba.

Pero yo ya no soy yo,

Ni mi casa es ya mi casa.

Compadre, quiero morir

decentemente en mi cama.

De acero, si puede ser,

con las sábanas de holanda.

¿No ves la herida que tengo

desde el pecho a la garganta?

Trescientas rosas morenas

lleva tu pechera blanca.

Tu sangre rezuma y huele

alrededor de tu faja.

Pero yo ya no soy yo.

Ni mi casa es ya mi casa.

Dejadme subir al menos

hasta las altas barandas,

¡dejadme subir!, dejadme

hasta las verdes barandas.

Barandales de la luna

por donde retumba el agua.


Ya suben los dos compadres

hacia las altas barandas.

Dejando un rastro de sangre.

Dejando un rastro de lágrimas.

Temblaban en los tejados

farolillos de hojalata.

Mil panderos de cristal,

herían la madrugada.


Verde que te quiero verde,

verde viento, verdes ramas.

Los dos compadres subieron.

El largo viento, dejaba

en la boca un raro gusto

de hiel, de menta y de albahaca.

¡Compadre! ¿Dónde está, dime?

¿Dónde está tu niña amarga?

¡Cuántas veces te esperó!

¡Cuántas veces te esperara,

cara fresca, negro pelo,

en esta verde baranda!


Sobre el rostro del aljibe

se mecía la gitana.

Verde carne, pelo verde,

con ojos de fría plata.

Un carábano de luna

la sostiene sobre el agua.

La noche se puso íntima

como una pequeña plaza.

Guardias civiles borrachos

en la puerta golpeaban.

Wednesday, 16 April 2008

Go slowly

Not a photograph from the 1920s,
but a painting by Juan de Flandes
in the Vienna
Künsthistorisches Museum
from about 1500.

It's taken me ten days to sort my photos from Vienna into an album - here. I don't deal well with a lot of anything: multiplicity floors me. Five or six hundred photos, more than I can view on-screen at one time - how do I sort those? I couldn't, it turned out, not in one go. I could only sort and ponder them bit by bit, draw out themes and slowly filter them down. And slowly does get there. In fact, it has huge advantages. I've not only sorted out my photos, but got my head around Vienna, put it in place and begun to walk away.

A favourite meditation teacher, Martine Batchelor, is much wont to say: "The more you have to do, the more slowly you need to do it." This may seem counter-intuitive, but it's not, if you think about it. Faced with tasks of potentially overwhelming magnitude, what you most need may well be calm and endurance.

This has also been my approach, therefore, to the many hundreds of emails, files and queries awaiting me on return from holiday, and it has worked quite well. I'm getting through it. It's hard, though. To slow down a mind that panics and zones out in the face of multiple demands is a challenge for a lifetime. A disastrous hare, perhaps I may aspire to be a viable, effective tortoise.

Tuesday, 15 April 2008

Six word memoir

Um, can you tell that's me reflected in the Viennese Buddha?

Still here, amazed by own persistence

(meme passed on by Zhoen while I was away)