Thursday 15 May 2008
A lot of shade. Working most of the time and not very happy about it. Acutely aware, because of the Mindfulness stuff, of how tired I often feel - and so soon after the long break!
Meantime, in odd moments, pursuing, losing and returning to a stream of thought that might turn out to be a blogpost much less narrowly self-absorbed. And thinking that, despite it all, even on bad days, the time I spend at work in the company of intellectuals and at leisure browsing the Internet both bring gifts. For a long time what I most looked for on line was emotion, creativity, community - and I still seek these, and continue to encounter and hugely value them. Lately, though, I find myself gravitating to slightly broader and more intellectual resources, looking, just tentatively, at psychology, philosophy, excited by the connections that pop up, the light shed on my own experience by what I hear and read. Heartening, really, that my mind in it's 54th year still seems sporadically inclined to venture shyly into new territory, or new approaches, at least, to long-term preoccupations.